Well, here goes. Right nowI tand between… a sort of border between the normal Spirit World, if it can be called such, funny, I've gotten so used to it that I am claiming the Spirit World has a sense of normality to it now. As I was saying, between the Spirit World we know it, and the what I heard many tribal elders call the Deep Umbra. Technically, it's gradual sort of transition, rather than a hard border, but I'm going to call it a border because it's easier to think of it like that.
I've done some hard things in the past month, most of them involving lots of fighting…and some hard decisions. Three members of the expedition force have been killed due to unrest in light of the previous extermination. Stragglers here and there, extermination isn't exactly clean, always a survivor or two and accusatory fingers point everywhere. Me in particular for being held captive especially since I recently made an ally of a pack of Pure werewolves, numbering about twelve or so in all. They want in to, for many of the same reasons I'm embarking on this mad quest to begin with. I was reluctant to have them on the roster, but I needed the supplies and they threatened to delay me if I didn't allow them to tag along. So as you can imagine, werewolves who are already agitated easily enough are being forced to work with.
But that's not the only thing that's bothering me. Again, this new pack is mostly made up of recent converts, barely been werewolves for half a year led by an older, more experienced Uratha than I. In fact, I hear that it's not just me, but there's more and more werewolf packs prowling the streets. I shit my pants when I realized this. I know that supernatural activity, especially conversions and transformations, has been rising in the past year, especially since the Ritual we did on that boat. The recent increases in Mages and Sin-eaters can be attributed more to the the general awareness or the side effects of the rite's passing. But here's the thing, according to Our lore, Luna is the One who determines when one of the wolf blooded changes. And if that's the case, that means that She's been enacting a massive draft. I know spirits are insane and all or at least by human standards, but let me tell you, that I know when the proverbial Godzilla Threshold has been reached when making more Uratha becomes a valid option.
It pains me to leave the mortal world right now, but I have to go, there may not be another chance for me to delve this deeply into the Deep Umbra again. There's this… wall being erected between the Deep Umbra and the Hisil, I don't really know why or how, but if I wait too long now, I may not be able to go into the Deeps. I think that Gaia, the spirit of Earth herself knows that the end is coming, and she's defending herself in whatever way she can. No one has ever contacted her in Millennia, but if there's any Spirits out there, it'd be her. I've done the math and well… Luna and Helios the Primary Moon and Sun Spirits might be strong, but Gaia could take on them both at the same time… atleast, that's what I think, considering that Gaia would be composed of every other spirit and idea on earth, not just natural ones, but conceptual and city spirits too, as She would be the sum total of existence on Earth and thus arguably have more power than any other spirit.
So you see It's now or never, my team's ready. We've got three whole werewolf packs and a couple of mages here and there. None of us got anything more advanced than a revolver, and even then, I'm not sure how useful that'll be in a place no one is sure of since no one has returned from the Deep Umbra before to tell us. This may be the last message I'll make in a while, depending on if the communicators work or not in the Deeps. So I will leave you with the following words
Lizzie, I don't really understand what you mean, but I'll tell you what I know. For starters I don't understand what you mean by "eating magic" do you mean literal eating or something? I've heard of werewolves eating magic before, but it really depends on if they've been given the power to do so. We gain our Gifts from spirits who "bless us" with something connected to their nature. So, a hunger spirit might give a werewolf the power to eat magic, or maybe since it's death magic, it might be a fungal spirit that does the deed. It's all symbolism in the end. Such a gift would be rare and well sought after, but it is possible. Werewolves also gain Essense, the stuff of spirit energy is made of from eating prey animals ( or cannibalizing wolves and humans) or drawing it from a font of Spiritual energy called a Locus, which is probably more of what Mr. White was talking about. Fortunately for you, loci take forever, maybe years, to make, but can be destroyed, if you know how. Also, Japan I'm sure has plenty of werewolves, who might help you in this regard, not all of us are wholly inhuman. If you ask around, I'm sure that you'll find a werewolf pack or two who supports you and if you ask nicely might help you find a Locus that has death tainted resonance so that you can "defile" it. Defiling a locus is simply creating a counter resonance to taint it. In the case of a death locus, things such as planting trees or flowers may destroy it overtime. We do a lot of this in Denver, and results vary depending on size and scale of the defilement. I will be honest and say I don't know you that much, but I trust you to make the right decisions. What you're doing is good and I hope what I know about spirits helps you.
Christian, we both come from ancient societies that have been stuck in their ways since the fall of Rome. Both of our elders, mage and werewolf alike hope for a return to the so called golden ages, where their kind ruled. I know only a bit about Atlantis from that Thyrus I recruited, but I know enough to say that it is just as foolish and insane as the me wanting to return to Pangea. We must make our masters realize that Golden ages are dead and will never return to the way things once were. Pangea and Atlantis are buried under by layers of strata, remembered but dead. I want to see a future that is neither, both have failed already. I hope to see something new.
Ricky, in many ways, I think you might be right, but at the same time, it kinda scares me. What you're saying is essentially we were put in just the right place to do these things. Now, what bugs me is who did planned all this. Someone must have and frankly, where we are right now makes it extremely unlikely that this is all one big accident. So let me ask you Ricky, who's pulling the strings? We're assuming they must be good because whoever it is benefitting us, atleast for the time being. It might not be that way forever and quite frankly, I don't like being manipulated unless I know who is doing it is on my side.
Austin, it is inneviable now that I know that Luna has been marshalling the whole goddamn bloodline into an army. The Uratha will fight, but for whom, that is uncertain. I will be gone for I do not know how long, but I know that whatever happens, I will be changed. I hope that I become, I will be able to lead my kind as I was destined to. I do hope that you're feeling alright… you don't exactly sound like yourself right now, but I guess life must be hard for being a vanilia mortal. Old friend, if worst comes to worst and I am not as I should be, I want you to put me down.
I just realzied, how funny it is, here I am five months later, and I still haven't chosen a deedname for myself yet. Everyone else in my packs have atleast one. I guess, when I do return, I'll tell you if I earn one.
I'm going now, I will contact you once it is safe to do so. Comrades, I will see you all agai